But in a good way.
Yesterday, I took a leap of faith, and signed up to sell Mary Kay. I've heard, or read, both positive and negative things about this type of business... but I really felt like this could be something good for me. So I did it.
I just got off the phone with my Sales Director, and my head's going crazy. Lots of numbers, lots of good ideas and lots of positive energy.
I would LOVE to start out at "Star Level"... but money, of course, is the issue. I can't just purchase all this stuff out of my own pocket. I'd love to, but money issues were the reason I decided to invest in another "job". So, I'm praying that as soon as possible, I can get some orders rolling in to help me out.
I haven't received my starter package yet... and I'm eagerly awaiting it's arrival. I truly am excited about the opportunity. Nervous? Yes, but I know that passion is the key. This is what I want to do. This is what I NEED to do.
I want to be a positive change in the lives of others. I want to share the joy and excitement I've got inside about the endless opportunities that lay ahead.
I know that I can do this... but I can't do it alone. Any feedback, encouragement, questions or orders (had to throw that in there!): shoot it my way!
"When I call on Jesus, all things are possible"
Friday, July 29, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Garage sale!
As newlyweds, we're trying to do the whole... out with the old, in with the new. So we're hosting a garage sale at our house THIS Saturday (July 30th)!
Here's the listing with the information:
href="http://www.yardsalesearch.com/">garage sales
in Fernandina Beach, FL.
Here's the listing with the information:
href="http://www.yardsalesearch.com/">garage sales
in Fernandina Beach, FL.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Cleaning
Cleaning is a neverending task. Especially when you have a 75 pound ball of love and fur living in your house. That ball of love and fur is a precious, but sometimes handful, black lab named Cody. Cody's been my "baby" for about a year now. And Louis "adopted" him as his own when we got together. So now here he is... living in the house, being spoiled on a daily basis.
I love him. And getting Cody definitely changed my life in many ways.
In the beginning, he taught me the value of sleep (he woke me up every two hours)... It was a test of patience. He peed in the floor. I'd lose it and cry (it was the lack of sleep).
But slowly we grew to be the best of friends. He gave me an even bigger heart for animals. Especially dogs. I love dogs more now than I ever have because I know how precious they are. I know that they have feelings and need to be loved... and all they want to do is love you and please you.
I wrote a blog earlier about puppy love. I still feel the same. If only we could learn to love unconditionally like a dog. I mean, I can yell at Cody... and next thing I know he's laying next to me, never holding a grudge. I always feel bad leaving him overnight (although he's taken care of by friends). But when I get home, I get attacked by my big love bug!
Dogs are great for a million reasons (and it's NOT the pet hair you have to clean up!).
They are stress relievers. I believe this with all my heart. Even on my worst days, just putting my hands on his soft fur and feeling his little nose nuzzle up next to me, I feel more at peace.
Everyday with Cody is a test of patience. In the mornings, he whines to wake me up. As soon as my feet his the floor, he's watching me anxiously as if to say, "Are we going for a walk?" Lord help us all if I mention the word WALK! As soon as I put on my work out clothes, you can see his excitement growing. Once I grab my keys, he's about to climb the walls with excitement. And then getting the poop-bags seals the deal and he can barely sit still while I put on his collar.
It's cute, but a bit annoying at times. His excitement can exhaust me. Especially when he tries to drag me along on our walks.
But the joy that his little 75 pound body contains is amazing. It makes me wish I had his energy... and makes me realize we should get more excited about the small things. It's hot as Hades outside, but that doesn't stop his enthusiasm. He's happy than a pig in mud when he's walking along, seeing the sights and smelling EVERYTHING.
Oh the things we could learn.
Now back to my original thought: cleaning.
I've spend the past 3 hours trying to get the house clean. And I wish I could teach Cody a thing or two... about cleaning. But alas, I can't. He lays and watches me sweep and mop. Then eagerly tries to get on the clean floor before it's dry. Then he enjoys trying to chase the vacuum cleaner, and lick chemicals I use to for cleaning the bathrooms. So cleaning becomes even more of a struggle trying to keep him out of everything!
Now, the house is almost clean (just need to do the terrible task of cleaning the shower...). It's just an hour before Louis arrives home. So I must go. I will have more to write later. Thanks for reading, and hopefully it put a smile on your face!
I love him. And getting Cody definitely changed my life in many ways.
In the beginning, he taught me the value of sleep (he woke me up every two hours)... It was a test of patience. He peed in the floor. I'd lose it and cry (it was the lack of sleep).
But slowly we grew to be the best of friends. He gave me an even bigger heart for animals. Especially dogs. I love dogs more now than I ever have because I know how precious they are. I know that they have feelings and need to be loved... and all they want to do is love you and please you.
I wrote a blog earlier about puppy love. I still feel the same. If only we could learn to love unconditionally like a dog. I mean, I can yell at Cody... and next thing I know he's laying next to me, never holding a grudge. I always feel bad leaving him overnight (although he's taken care of by friends). But when I get home, I get attacked by my big love bug!
Dogs are great for a million reasons (and it's NOT the pet hair you have to clean up!).
They are stress relievers. I believe this with all my heart. Even on my worst days, just putting my hands on his soft fur and feeling his little nose nuzzle up next to me, I feel more at peace.
Everyday with Cody is a test of patience. In the mornings, he whines to wake me up. As soon as my feet his the floor, he's watching me anxiously as if to say, "Are we going for a walk?" Lord help us all if I mention the word WALK! As soon as I put on my work out clothes, you can see his excitement growing. Once I grab my keys, he's about to climb the walls with excitement. And then getting the poop-bags seals the deal and he can barely sit still while I put on his collar.
It's cute, but a bit annoying at times. His excitement can exhaust me. Especially when he tries to drag me along on our walks.
But the joy that his little 75 pound body contains is amazing. It makes me wish I had his energy... and makes me realize we should get more excited about the small things. It's hot as Hades outside, but that doesn't stop his enthusiasm. He's happy than a pig in mud when he's walking along, seeing the sights and smelling EVERYTHING.
Oh the things we could learn.
Now back to my original thought: cleaning.
I've spend the past 3 hours trying to get the house clean. And I wish I could teach Cody a thing or two... about cleaning. But alas, I can't. He lays and watches me sweep and mop. Then eagerly tries to get on the clean floor before it's dry. Then he enjoys trying to chase the vacuum cleaner, and lick chemicals I use to for cleaning the bathrooms. So cleaning becomes even more of a struggle trying to keep him out of everything!
Now, the house is almost clean (just need to do the terrible task of cleaning the shower...). It's just an hour before Louis arrives home. So I must go. I will have more to write later. Thanks for reading, and hopefully it put a smile on your face!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
A Lot Has Changed... and I'm Thinking About Changing
Wow!
Looking at old posts, I can't help but laugh. It's been a while. Looking at where I was, and where I am now is a completely different world.
First, and biggest change of all, is that I'm now happily married! Surprised?! I met this amazing man back in late September... started dating in mid-October, got engaged in December, and just got married on May 7th. Talk about a whirlwind!
Some people may think it's crazy. We both thought we were crazy too. But most importantly, we are crazy about each other, and when you know it's meant to be, you just know. More on married life later!
Secondly, I quit my radio station job... NOT that I don't want to continue to pursue it, but you see my "first" up there?! I was getting married, and my job only gave me 14 hours a week at minimum wage. I didn't think it would be worth my husband trying to sell his house and move to Macon for me. So, I took a leap of faith and quit.
Third on my list of changes: I moved. I'm now living in the BEAUTIFUL state of Florida. And best of all-- it's an ISLAND. Which means I'm just minutes from the beach! For those of you who know me, this was a dream come true.
So are you beginning to see how everything is tying together? There's a lot more changes, all of which are part of the bigger picture and all tie together somehow. I won't bore you!
My whole life has been in a process of change now for the past few months. My "new" life is great and it's continually showing and teaching me new things-- about myself and the world around me.
There's a lot I feel I want to say, but my fingers can't keep up with my brain. And my brain can't sort through the muddled mess up there. So I'm starting off slowly. There are some issues, thoughts, feelings and concepts I'd love to blow your mind about. I'm not sure if I'll get there in this post... so be patient with me!
The biggest thing right now: if you look at the title of this blog, you'll see the whole, "I'm thinking about changing". And if you're wondering what it's about... I'm thinking about changing up my blog. Maybe starting a new one. I'm looking for ideas on what to blog about. I have a few ideas, but haven't gotten the nerve to tackle it just yet. I'd love some suggestions! I'm going to keep my ideas a secret for now... but keep an eye out for the big change!
So for now, you have a brief overview of my "new" life. I'm loving being married and loving living near the beach with my wonderful husband and my puppy!
I'm working in the restaurant industry, again. NOT loving my job. But I am looking for radio or television work. It's just a process!
I still long to dance... and will be looking into dance classes or even jobs as a dance teacher!
Life is a rollercoaster ride. You either enjoy it or you don't. So choose to embrace it. Throw your hands up in the air, instead of shutting your eyes and holding on for dear life!
Looking at old posts, I can't help but laugh. It's been a while. Looking at where I was, and where I am now is a completely different world.
First, and biggest change of all, is that I'm now happily married! Surprised?! I met this amazing man back in late September... started dating in mid-October, got engaged in December, and just got married on May 7th. Talk about a whirlwind!
Some people may think it's crazy. We both thought we were crazy too. But most importantly, we are crazy about each other, and when you know it's meant to be, you just know. More on married life later!
Secondly, I quit my radio station job... NOT that I don't want to continue to pursue it, but you see my "first" up there?! I was getting married, and my job only gave me 14 hours a week at minimum wage. I didn't think it would be worth my husband trying to sell his house and move to Macon for me. So, I took a leap of faith and quit.
Third on my list of changes: I moved. I'm now living in the BEAUTIFUL state of Florida. And best of all-- it's an ISLAND. Which means I'm just minutes from the beach! For those of you who know me, this was a dream come true.
So are you beginning to see how everything is tying together? There's a lot more changes, all of which are part of the bigger picture and all tie together somehow. I won't bore you!
My whole life has been in a process of change now for the past few months. My "new" life is great and it's continually showing and teaching me new things-- about myself and the world around me.
There's a lot I feel I want to say, but my fingers can't keep up with my brain. And my brain can't sort through the muddled mess up there. So I'm starting off slowly. There are some issues, thoughts, feelings and concepts I'd love to blow your mind about. I'm not sure if I'll get there in this post... so be patient with me!
The biggest thing right now: if you look at the title of this blog, you'll see the whole, "I'm thinking about changing". And if you're wondering what it's about... I'm thinking about changing up my blog. Maybe starting a new one. I'm looking for ideas on what to blog about. I have a few ideas, but haven't gotten the nerve to tackle it just yet. I'd love some suggestions! I'm going to keep my ideas a secret for now... but keep an eye out for the big change!
So for now, you have a brief overview of my "new" life. I'm loving being married and loving living near the beach with my wonderful husband and my puppy!
I'm working in the restaurant industry, again. NOT loving my job. But I am looking for radio or television work. It's just a process!
I still long to dance... and will be looking into dance classes or even jobs as a dance teacher!
Life is a rollercoaster ride. You either enjoy it or you don't. So choose to embrace it. Throw your hands up in the air, instead of shutting your eyes and holding on for dear life!
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Random thoughts of the day
Warning! These are all random thoughts that have popped up today.
Dr. Pepper is SO good.
Radio is an awesome job.
Hello headache... we meet again.
Is it normal to miss my puppy so much when I'm gone all day? Even though he'll be a little booger when I finally get home.
It's super cold in the studio.
I can't wait to see what the future holds.
I'm very bad about over analyzing EVERYTHING. But I think part of it is because I listen for changes in tone and delivery and can tell when things aren't right.
I prefer 100% honesty. In the words of John Mayer-- Say what you need to say!
I have to admit... the new Rihanna and Eminem song is pretty awesome.
Katy Perry's California Girls get stuck in my head, and I like to dance to it. But I can't say I LOVE the song!
Some people annoy me.
I lack patience... especially when I lack sleep.
I hate when people can't just be happy for you. So what if it's not what YOU wanted, It's MY life, and I'm very happy, thank you.
My phone (the primary one, not the "for fun" cell phone) is about to die.
I'm going to be on-air on Q106.3 FM tomorrow 3p.m.- 9 p.m. www.q106.fm.
I need another job. I need to fill out those 4 applications I picked up.
I'm ready to have my own place.
I think I'm stressed.
I want to dance.
I could use a massage.
I'm realizing how this blog is all about ME, ME, ME. I'm a bit selfish at times. And sometimes I just need to vent!
I need to spend more time with friends.
I need to laugh more, and love more.
I usually don't think of myself as judgmental, but I know I can be sometimes.
I want everyone I meet to feel good in my presence. Like they matter. Hopefully they will make me feel the same.
I think we all need to realize that everyone is fighting their own demon, and even if you don't know what it is (and maybe you don't need to) we need to be more compassionate towards others. We all struggle, we all fall down. We don't have to know the reason, just a smile can change the world.
I'm overly emotional.
I want to read more, brush up on my Spanish, visit another country... exercise more, complain less. Enjoy every moment God gave me on this earth.
Be less critical (especially of myself). Work to improve what I can and accept what I can't.
Take criticism as a way to make myself better.
Be more cautious.
And that's it for now. Working...
Dr. Pepper is SO good.
Radio is an awesome job.
Hello headache... we meet again.
Is it normal to miss my puppy so much when I'm gone all day? Even though he'll be a little booger when I finally get home.
It's super cold in the studio.
I can't wait to see what the future holds.
I'm very bad about over analyzing EVERYTHING. But I think part of it is because I listen for changes in tone and delivery and can tell when things aren't right.
I prefer 100% honesty. In the words of John Mayer-- Say what you need to say!
I have to admit... the new Rihanna and Eminem song is pretty awesome.
Katy Perry's California Girls get stuck in my head, and I like to dance to it. But I can't say I LOVE the song!
Some people annoy me.
I lack patience... especially when I lack sleep.
I hate when people can't just be happy for you. So what if it's not what YOU wanted, It's MY life, and I'm very happy, thank you.
My phone (the primary one, not the "for fun" cell phone) is about to die.
I'm going to be on-air on Q106.3 FM tomorrow 3p.m.- 9 p.m. www.q106.fm.
I need another job. I need to fill out those 4 applications I picked up.
I'm ready to have my own place.
I think I'm stressed.
I want to dance.
I could use a massage.
I'm realizing how this blog is all about ME, ME, ME. I'm a bit selfish at times. And sometimes I just need to vent!
I need to spend more time with friends.
I need to laugh more, and love more.
I usually don't think of myself as judgmental, but I know I can be sometimes.
I want everyone I meet to feel good in my presence. Like they matter. Hopefully they will make me feel the same.
I think we all need to realize that everyone is fighting their own demon, and even if you don't know what it is (and maybe you don't need to) we need to be more compassionate towards others. We all struggle, we all fall down. We don't have to know the reason, just a smile can change the world.
I'm overly emotional.
I want to read more, brush up on my Spanish, visit another country... exercise more, complain less. Enjoy every moment God gave me on this earth.
Be less critical (especially of myself). Work to improve what I can and accept what I can't.
Take criticism as a way to make myself better.
Be more cautious.
And that's it for now. Working...
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I'll take off my halo, if you take off your wings...
Unconditional love. What do those two words mean to you?
In today's world... there are SO many conditions when it comes to relationships, all types of relationships. I'll love you as long as... fill in the blank. You did this, and I can't forgive you. Blah Blah Blah.
It's sad. I know we're all human, and we can't fully grasp the idea of unconditional love... but can't we try?
It's frustrating feeling like you're never good enough. Feeling as though being "you" is just not enough.
Take a puppy for example. I just recently got a black labrador retriever puppy. Talk about unconditional love. Regardless of how long I leave him at home, or what I say or do... he still feels the need to be close to me, to cuddle, to lick me... and even the occasional bite. He doesn't hold grudges. He puts his whole (little) heart into it.
When he looks at me, my heart melts because I feel the love, that is unconditional. He doesn't judge me. He doesn't care, he just loves.
Wouldn't the world be a much better place if we could learn from a puppy?
It's exhausting trying to please everyone. It's not healthy for you to try to change for someone else, or try to make someone change for you.
Live in the moment. Enjoy your life, because life is short. I don't want to look back and regret. I don't want to think... I should have loved more.
Honestly, I'm guilty of conditional love. And it makes me angry. I am so tired of holding everyone to such high standards that they may never reach. It's not fair to them. Just being themselves should be enough.
I want to be a person that people can see the love just radiating off of me. I want people to know that I am a good hearted person who won't judge them, because I know that we're all human and we all screw up-- a lot! I want the people in my life to know that I am trying to love unconditionally. I use the word "trying" because again-- I'm not perfect. Only God knows what true unconditional love is, I mean, he gave his ONLY son for ME and YOU! That's love without boundaries!
If we could just take this simple concept, and put it to work... imagine the possibilities. Relationships could be stronger. There could be deeper understanding. More forgiveness. More open communication if we didn't feel like we'd constantly be judged for our words. This simple idea of "puppy love" could change the world around us.
I consider myself someone who is constantly trying to better myself, and this is just another aspect I am trying to work on.
I want you to know that I love you, respect you and will try my hardest not to hold you to standards that even I can't achieve myself. It's not fair.
Wouldn't it feel amazing to know you are accepted for just being you? Mistakes and all, you're still loved?
I like this song, a new one by Steel Magnolia, called "Just By Being You."
Let’s run away,
Where nothing stands between me and you
Let’s find a place somewhere a little closer to the truth,
And call it a home
Where there is no right and there’s no wrong
And we can be all alone
And I’ll take off my halo, if you take off your wings
You don’t have to be invincible cause I sure ain’t no saint
You’ll always be my angel no matter what you do
Cause you take me to heaven just by being you.
Tell me a secret
Tell me things that no one else should know
Even in your weakness
Baby drop your guard, just let it go
Until everything’s exposed
And you don’t have to feel ashamed
Baby, just say my name (ohh)
And I’ll take off my halo, if you take off your wings
You don’t have to be invincible cause I sure ain’t no saint
You’ll always be my angel no matter what you do
Cause you take me to heaven just by being you.
When I see you standing there
You know it all becomes so clear
The way you look, the way you talk
I need the way you lift me up
This will never feel complete
Until there’s nothing in between
And we have broke down every wall
Baby baby baby baby let’s just fall
And I’ll take off my halo
Yeah, and I’ll take off my wings
You don’t have to be invincible cause I sure ain’t no saint
You’ll always be my angel no matter what you do
Cause you take me to heaven
Just by being you
Ohh, you take me to heaven
Just by being you
Let’s run away
Let’s run away
In today's world... there are SO many conditions when it comes to relationships, all types of relationships. I'll love you as long as... fill in the blank. You did this, and I can't forgive you. Blah Blah Blah.
It's sad. I know we're all human, and we can't fully grasp the idea of unconditional love... but can't we try?
It's frustrating feeling like you're never good enough. Feeling as though being "you" is just not enough.
Take a puppy for example. I just recently got a black labrador retriever puppy. Talk about unconditional love. Regardless of how long I leave him at home, or what I say or do... he still feels the need to be close to me, to cuddle, to lick me... and even the occasional bite. He doesn't hold grudges. He puts his whole (little) heart into it.
When he looks at me, my heart melts because I feel the love, that is unconditional. He doesn't judge me. He doesn't care, he just loves.
Wouldn't the world be a much better place if we could learn from a puppy?
It's exhausting trying to please everyone. It's not healthy for you to try to change for someone else, or try to make someone change for you.
Live in the moment. Enjoy your life, because life is short. I don't want to look back and regret. I don't want to think... I should have loved more.
Honestly, I'm guilty of conditional love. And it makes me angry. I am so tired of holding everyone to such high standards that they may never reach. It's not fair to them. Just being themselves should be enough.
I want to be a person that people can see the love just radiating off of me. I want people to know that I am a good hearted person who won't judge them, because I know that we're all human and we all screw up-- a lot! I want the people in my life to know that I am trying to love unconditionally. I use the word "trying" because again-- I'm not perfect. Only God knows what true unconditional love is, I mean, he gave his ONLY son for ME and YOU! That's love without boundaries!
If we could just take this simple concept, and put it to work... imagine the possibilities. Relationships could be stronger. There could be deeper understanding. More forgiveness. More open communication if we didn't feel like we'd constantly be judged for our words. This simple idea of "puppy love" could change the world around us.
I consider myself someone who is constantly trying to better myself, and this is just another aspect I am trying to work on.
I want you to know that I love you, respect you and will try my hardest not to hold you to standards that even I can't achieve myself. It's not fair.
Wouldn't it feel amazing to know you are accepted for just being you? Mistakes and all, you're still loved?
I like this song, a new one by Steel Magnolia, called "Just By Being You."
Let’s run away,
Where nothing stands between me and you
Let’s find a place somewhere a little closer to the truth,
And call it a home
Where there is no right and there’s no wrong
And we can be all alone
And I’ll take off my halo, if you take off your wings
You don’t have to be invincible cause I sure ain’t no saint
You’ll always be my angel no matter what you do
Cause you take me to heaven just by being you.
Tell me a secret
Tell me things that no one else should know
Even in your weakness
Baby drop your guard, just let it go
Until everything’s exposed
And you don’t have to feel ashamed
Baby, just say my name (ohh)
And I’ll take off my halo, if you take off your wings
You don’t have to be invincible cause I sure ain’t no saint
You’ll always be my angel no matter what you do
Cause you take me to heaven just by being you.
When I see you standing there
You know it all becomes so clear
The way you look, the way you talk
I need the way you lift me up
This will never feel complete
Until there’s nothing in between
And we have broke down every wall
Baby baby baby baby let’s just fall
And I’ll take off my halo
Yeah, and I’ll take off my wings
You don’t have to be invincible cause I sure ain’t no saint
You’ll always be my angel no matter what you do
Cause you take me to heaven
Just by being you
Ohh, you take me to heaven
Just by being you
Let’s run away
Let’s run away
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Win or Lose?
Some days you can't win for losing.
Things are going good, and then out of no where, something slaps you in the face.
My thoughts? You pick and choose your battles. Some things just aren't worth the fight.
I've made the decisions I made... and I did so for MYSELF. I'm at a selfish stage in my life. I have finally started taking control, and not in it just to please everyone else. That's a miserable life.
I've been there, and done that. I've smiled and pretended it's all ok... just so EVERYONE else was happy.
I'm tired of being attacked. I'm tired of having to explain myself.
I don't need to be drug down anymore.
I'm me, I'm just who I am. You can't change me. If you don't like that-- I'm not going to apologize, because I won't apologize for the way God made me.
Yes, I have made mistakes. Yes, I've done stupid things and said things I shouldn't have. I'm human-- I make mistakes. But realize that everything I do that doesn't make YOU happy, isn't necessarily a mistake. It isn't necessarily to make you mad. It's because I am living MY life. I'm doing what I need to do. Take it or leave it.
I'm annoyed. I'm frustrated. I'm trying to get my life on track, and it seems like there are things and people trying to hold me back. But it won't. I'm determined.
Things are going good, and then out of no where, something slaps you in the face.
My thoughts? You pick and choose your battles. Some things just aren't worth the fight.
I've made the decisions I made... and I did so for MYSELF. I'm at a selfish stage in my life. I have finally started taking control, and not in it just to please everyone else. That's a miserable life.
I've been there, and done that. I've smiled and pretended it's all ok... just so EVERYONE else was happy.
I'm tired of being attacked. I'm tired of having to explain myself.
I don't need to be drug down anymore.
I'm me, I'm just who I am. You can't change me. If you don't like that-- I'm not going to apologize, because I won't apologize for the way God made me.
Yes, I have made mistakes. Yes, I've done stupid things and said things I shouldn't have. I'm human-- I make mistakes. But realize that everything I do that doesn't make YOU happy, isn't necessarily a mistake. It isn't necessarily to make you mad. It's because I am living MY life. I'm doing what I need to do. Take it or leave it.
I'm annoyed. I'm frustrated. I'm trying to get my life on track, and it seems like there are things and people trying to hold me back. But it won't. I'm determined.
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