I'm sitting in my dorm room... thinking about how many things have changed, and will continue to change. This semester, not only am I in a new room and hall, I'm also going to be a SENIOR, I'm an R.A., and, unlike the past2 years, I don't have a boyfriend. It's so different, and a bit scary at times. But I have a decision to make-- I can either waste time reminiscing or I can make the most of it, and embrace my new life. And well, honestly, I want to embrace the new. I honestly am loving my life right now. I mean, don't get me wrong, this past week has been quite an adjustment, and I've been moody and lonely... but I think the majority of it is the fact that I'm ready for things to really get moving. I'm ready for something big to happen. I'm not one to like sitting around bored all the time... I want to be up and doing something. I like making my To-Do list and getting those things done. I think I'm starting to realize just how big of a change I'm going through.
I have also realized how much I've learned about myself... just in the past 3 months since I've been single. Sure, 3 months really isn't that long, but a lot has happened in those months. I've learned the value of friendship. I've learned that some people really aren't who I thought they were. Some people can be trusted, while others, not so much. I learned that I need to keep my mouth shut around certain people. I've met some incredible people who have changed my life. I've fallen even more in love with the radio industry. I'm discovering my passions, while not having to worry about pleasing someone else in the process. This is MY life. I don't have to plan my life with someone else... when it's meant to be, it will fall in place the way it's supposed to. No need for me to worry about it.
I'm finally learning what it's like to love myself, and I love it. I also found this awesome quote that I absolutely can relate to!
The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous!
So, I'm starting new. It's my "new beginnings." I can't wait to see what life holds for me...
Here are some things I want to work on:
* Worry less
* Quit looking for love
* Laugh more
* LIVE
* Be more organized and focused
* Make new friends
* Reconnect with old friends
* Make time for myself
* Learn my limits
I'm sure there's much more I could add to this list, but this is it for now!
So what should the song of the day be???
Hmmm...
It's not really appropriate for the day or topic, but it's a new favorite of mine:
Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus (ok ok, don't hate... I just like the song. Not really a Miley fan!)
I hopped off the plane at LAX
with a dream and my cardigan
welcome to the land of fame excess,
am I gonna fit in?
Jumped in the cab,
Here I am for the first time
Look to the right and I see the Hollywood sign
This is all so crazy
Everybody seems so famous
My tummys turnin and I'm feelin kinda home sick
Too much pressure and I'm nervous,
That's when the taxi man turned on the radio
and a Jay Z song was on
and the Jay Z song was on
and the Jay Z song was on
CHORUS:
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Get to the club in my taxi cab
Everybody's lookin at me now
Like “whos that chick, thats rockin’ kicks?
She gotta be from out of town”
So hard with my girls all around me
Its definitely not a Nashville party
Cause’ all I see are stilletos
I guess I never got the memo
My tummys turnin and I'm feelin kinda home sick
Too much pressure and I'm nervous
That's when the D.J. dropped my favorite tune
and a Britney song was on
and the Britney song was on
and the Britney song was on
CHORUS:
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Feel like hoppin' on a flight (on a flight)
Back to my hometown tonight (town tonight)
Something stops me everytime (everytime)
The DJ plays my song and I feel alright
CHORUS:
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA
