The range of emotions I deal with on a daily and weekly basis would be enough to drive anyone mad. It's a bit crazy, so excuse me if this blog seems to jump around!
There have been so many things on my mind lately. One of which is... It's up to me to make each day a good one. Yesterday, as I prepared for my day, I thought, "I am in control of the way I embrace the day... so why not make every day a good one?" It's about attitude... It's about outlook. I know things will come up that make me mad or frustrate me... but I need to look at things in a new light. I want to be someone who can light up someone else's day. Someone people view as positive and uplifting. Someone who shines no matter what.
Life is too short to be miserable all the time.
Those words are OH SO true. I had to change my situation and change my life to get to where I am now. I AM happy. I am having an amazing time doing my thing. Living MY life. Being free to embrace the things I love.
What makes me mad about this "being happy" thing? Other people. If my happiness isn't a result of what they think is right for me... then they can't be happy for me. They can't accept me. They can barely even talk to me because they don't understand it... and they won't try to. Sorry I'm not sorry for finally doing what I want to do and being happy about it. I am not here to make everyone else happy. I still struggle with people-pleasing because I've done that my WHOLE LIFE! But there's been so many times I stopped and realized that those things didn't make me happy. I can't continue pleasing everyone else... because that's when I became a shell of a person. Someone who had nothing of her own. Someone who could only daydream about what she truly wanted life to be like!
Why can't we just be kind and loving? I guess this goes back to my post about judgement. These days, things are so conditional. We can't just accept and love someone... we have to make sure they meet our criteria.
I am who I am. I have tried too long to please everyone else. And right now, I just want to be ME! I want to live life, and stop being miserable... I want to be able to stop worrying about what someone will say or think of me. I want to just live... love... laugh and be ME! Is that too much to ask?
