Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year brings new things...

I normally don't make huge New Years resolutions... but I believe 2010 is going to be MY year! So there are a few things I want to change/work on. So here's my list (I'm sure I'll add to it!):

1. Get in shape-- work on strength and flexibility! Hopefully the new Wii Fit Plus will help me achieve this goal!

2. Laugh more-- Laughter truly is the best medicine. There's nothing better than a genuine laugh!

3. Love more-- this resolution is about making sure that I make an effort to really show the people in my life just how much I care about them.

4. Do more for myself-- this includes learning to say "no" when I know I can't handle something. It means taking time out of my week to take care of myself, whether it be taking a hot bath, painting my nails, going for a walk, taking a much needed nap, lunch with a friend... whatever. Just making time for myself at least once a week!

5. Take a few risks-- stop being afraid, and jump in with both feet. Apply for the job I'm nervous about. Talk to a stranger. Tell someone how I really feel about them. Whatever it is... something to get my adrenaline going and my heart beating faster.

6. Have more confidence in myself/love myself-- love my little flaws. Have more patience, and have more confidence in myself.

7. Slow down-- learn to enjoy the little things. Take things a little at a time. Stop trying to rush everything.

8. Find the true meaning of true love... :) This is MY year remember?!

9. Save more money!

10. Learn to live own my own! I will be getting my own apartment once I graduate-- and the thought of being on my own is scary, but I'm so excited about all of the possibilities!


This list wound up being longer than I originally planned... but there are still things I'll probably think of to add. :)

So what are YOUR resolutions? Follow me on Twitter @RadioGirl87 and let me know!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

In the end...

At the end of the day... and at the end of your life, what are you going to look back on and regret that you didn't do enough of?

Live, laugh, love.

These are three things I think most of us don't do enough of.

We get so caught up in the day to day things, we forget to stop and think about the things most important.

Obviously, we all have to work to make a living... but is your career taking the front seat to everything else in your world?

Don't get me wrong, I'm a career oriented person. I'm eager to get out of college and start my career. But, money isn't that important to me. I simply want to be happy. Sure, work is work, but that doesn't mean you can't be happy.

One thing I think is important is to take time out for ourselves sometimes... It gives you a chance to relax and recharge. It keeps you from getting too burnt out, too depressed, too miserable.

It also gives you time for living life.

Live-- To me, it's all about the simple things in life. Just taking the time to enjoy the simple things. A walk outside, the sunshine, a child's laughter, chocolate milk, a sweet text message, a call from a friend... Whatever it is that makes you happy.

Laugh-- Laughter: it truly is the best medicine. Do you remember the last time you laughed really hard? Whether it's watching your favorite comedian, watching a funny movie, or laughing with friends. Do it often! That's something you won't regret!

Love-- Tell the people you love them just how much you truly love them-- and tell them often. Don't hold back. You never know what could happen. Reminds me of the Garth Brooks song: If Tomorrow Never Comes... will she know how much I loved her? Did I try in everyway, to show her everyday, that she's my only one.

It also reminds me of the Kris Allen song:
Yeah… gotta start
Looking at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin’ it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin
Gotta live like we’re dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we’re dying.

That's one thing I'm really trying to work on. And it's not just about saying it-- it's showing it. I want my family to know that I do love them... Sure, the words I love you get thrown around so much, we often overlook it and don't realize the meaning of the words. So next time you say it to someone-- mean it! And let them know!


So in the end, will you have lived, laughed and loved enough?

What's your top priority in life? Are you taking time out of your busy life to show the people in your life how much they mean to you?

I know there's a lot I need to work on.

I'm tired of being unsatisfied with where I'm at right now. I'm tired of constantly looking forward to what's ahead, instead of appreciating the here and now. I want to be a better person. I want to be a ray of sunshine for someone on a cloudy day. I want to be a person that others can rely on. I want to be a person that people will remember. I want to leave a lasting legacy-- not by being "famous" but by being me.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Random Thoughts for Today...

I know it's been forever. Sorry. But today I have a lot on my mind, and felt I needed to write about it.

So here are some random thoughts I had today.

Your feelings mean nothing if the other person doesn't feel the same.

But how will you know how that person feels unless you talk about it? Communication is important. Relationships will fail without it.

Why is life so complicated?

I'm a woman with a lot of emotions. Big dreams. And a true hopeless romantic.

Sometimes a girl doesn't want to just be called "hot". She needs more than that.

Why hide your feelings? Why are we so afraid to let someone in? Tell that person how you really feel. Don't waste their time if you truly don't feel the same about them.

For a while, I was so afraid to let someone in because I'm so afraid of getting hurt again. But honestly, the more I think about it... what is life without risks? I'd rather be hurt again knowing that I gave it my all than to look back and wonder if things would have turned out differently. Sometimes you just have to have faith and hope for the best.

It's scary. But deep down I know one day it will take me by surprise and knock me off my feet.

Sometimes it's frustrating... I look at my sisters, who both only dated one man, and wound up marrying them. And I think, "Why is it SO easy for them?" I used to get depressed. But deep down I have this faith that one day, I'll have exactly what I've always dreamed of and appreciate it more because of all the crap I've had to deal with.

I have a big heart... and while that's not a bad thing, it can be tough to deal with. When I give something, I give my all. I'm passionate. It can be ridiculously hard to deal with. But it's just who I am.

I'm a romantic.

I'm just me.

But most of all, I just want people to be honest and up front with me. Don't sugar-coat it.

Maybe I'm a bit insecure, and need a little reassurance. But is that too much to ask for?

I have feelings. I have emotions. I have desires.

I had someone tell me that I was an amazing and wonderful woman and that I deserved the best. He reminded me that I am a romantic... and sometimes I need more.

I know, I'm complicated. But most important, I'm just me. And I know one day, someone will appreciate it. All I can do now is hold on and enjoy the ride, in hopes that one day it will all be worth it.

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."


The song of the day is...

"Tell Her" by Lonestar

So you say your love's about to end
You say you can't take no more
She's out the door
And your looking for a friend

Who am I to tell you why
But I'm just curious, were you furious
Or did you swallow your pride
And look her in the eye and

Tell her that you love her
Tell her that you need her
Tell her that you want her to stay
Reassure her with a kiss
She may never know unless you
Show her what your feeling
Tell her you're believing
Even though it's hard to say
'Cause she needs to know you're thinking of her
So open up and tell her that you love her

Brother I've been right where you are now
And my heart was broke
'Cause I never spoke
Those healing words out loud

But I've learned my lesson well
And now every night
Before I close my eyes
I look at my woman and
I ask myself did you

Tell her that you love her
Tell her that you need her
Tell her that you want her to stay
Reassure her with a kiss
She may never know unless you
Show her what your feeling
Tell her you're believing
Even though it's hard to say
'Cause she needs to know you're thinking of her
So open up and tell her that you love her

Tell her that you love her

Tell her that you love her
Tell her that you need her
Tell her that you want her to stay
Reassure her with a kiss
She may never know unless you
Show her what your feeling
Tell her you're believing
Even though it's hard to say
'Cause she needs to know you're thinking of her
So open up and tell her that you love her
Tell her that you love her




Another good song:

"Try a Little Tenderness" by Michael Buble

She may be weary
Women do get weary
Wearing the same shabby dress
And when she's weary
Try a little tenderness

Oh, she may be waiting
Just anticipating
Things she may never possess
While she's without them
Try a little tenderness

It's not just sentimental
She has her grief and her care
But a word so soft and gentle
Makes it easier to bear

You won't regret it
Women don't forget it
Love is they're whole happiness
And it's all so easy
Try a little tenderness

But a word
Soft and gentle
Makes it easier to bear

You won't regret it
Cause women don't forget it
Love is their whole happiness
And it's all so easy
Just try a little tenderness

You've gotta try
You've gotta hold her
You've got to squeeze her
You've got to try
You've got to try
And always please her
You won't regret it
You won't regret it
Oh, try a little tenderness

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

New Beginnings...

So, it's been a while. Over a month actually. Sorry! I tried to write a few times, but had so much going on it was hard to put my thoughts out there. So, here's to a new beginning!

I'm sitting in my dorm room... thinking about how many things have changed, and will continue to change. This semester, not only am I in a new room and hall, I'm also going to be a SENIOR, I'm an R.A., and, unlike the past2 years, I don't have a boyfriend. It's so different, and a bit scary at times. But I have a decision to make-- I can either waste time reminiscing or I can make the most of it, and embrace my new life. And well, honestly, I want to embrace the new. I honestly am loving my life right now. I mean, don't get me wrong, this past week has been quite an adjustment, and I've been moody and lonely... but I think the majority of it is the fact that I'm ready for things to really get moving. I'm ready for something big to happen. I'm not one to like sitting around bored all the time... I want to be up and doing something. I like making my To-Do list and getting those things done. I think I'm starting to realize just how big of a change I'm going through.

I have also realized how much I've learned about myself... just in the past 3 months since I've been single. Sure, 3 months really isn't that long, but a lot has happened in those months. I've learned the value of friendship. I've learned that some people really aren't who I thought they were. Some people can be trusted, while others, not so much. I learned that I need to keep my mouth shut around certain people. I've met some incredible people who have changed my life. I've fallen even more in love with the radio industry. I'm discovering my passions, while not having to worry about pleasing someone else in the process. This is MY life. I don't have to plan my life with someone else... when it's meant to be, it will fall in place the way it's supposed to. No need for me to worry about it.

I'm finally learning what it's like to love myself, and I love it. I also found this awesome quote that I absolutely can relate to!

The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous!


So, I'm starting new. It's my "new beginnings." I can't wait to see what life holds for me...
Here are some things I want to work on:
* Worry less
* Quit looking for love
* Laugh more
* LIVE
* Be more organized and focused
* Make new friends
* Reconnect with old friends
* Make time for myself
* Learn my limits


I'm sure there's much more I could add to this list, but this is it for now!

So what should the song of the day be???

Hmmm...

It's not really appropriate for the day or topic, but it's a new favorite of mine:

Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus (ok ok, don't hate... I just like the song. Not really a Miley fan!)

I hopped off the plane at LAX
with a dream and my cardigan
welcome to the land of fame excess,
am I gonna fit in?

Jumped in the cab,
Here I am for the first time
Look to the right and I see the Hollywood sign
This is all so crazy
Everybody seems so famous

My tummys turnin and I'm feelin kinda home sick
Too much pressure and I'm nervous,
That's when the taxi man turned on the radio
and a Jay Z song was on
and the Jay Z song was on
and the Jay Z song was on

CHORUS:
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA

Get to the club in my taxi cab
Everybody's lookin at me now
Like “whos that chick, thats rockin’ kicks?
She gotta be from out of town”

So hard with my girls all around me
Its definitely not a Nashville party
Cause’ all I see are stilletos
I guess I never got the memo

My tummys turnin and I'm feelin kinda home sick
Too much pressure and I'm nervous
That's when the D.J. dropped my favorite tune
and a Britney song was on
and the Britney song was on
and the Britney song was on

CHORUS:
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA

Feel like hoppin' on a flight (on a flight)
Back to my hometown tonight (town tonight)
Something stops me everytime (everytime)
The DJ plays my song and I feel alright

CHORUS:
So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA

So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok
Yea, It's a party in the USA
Yea, It's a party in the USA

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Dogs and Cats

So I had an interesting discussion today about cats and dogs. I've been talking about how I want a dog, but I also am a huge cat lover. My friend asked me about it... and I responded with something that I had never really thought about it.

I'm a huge animal lover (mostly just dogs and cats). But my love for dogs and cats is different. It's not because of how cute they are (although they are!)... It's about their personalities.

And well, I have decided the reason I love cats is that I relate well to a cat. I've been told I'm like a cat in some ways. And I think cats are very graceful animals. I love their sleek features and graceful movements. But I also relate to their personalities. Cats are sassy. They can be SO picky. They are great at cuddling, but only when they want to. They are curious creatures. They are playful... and they love to nap. They can be quiet, or they can love to "talk", depending on the day/mood. They love warm sunshine.

Oh, wait... this gets better.

Why do I love dogs? Because it's what I seek in a man! Sound crazy? Well, maybe. Let me explain.

Dogs are... great companions. They are loyal. They are protective and strong. They love to play, but can also simply cuddle. They are cute, and sweet. And good at sensing your emotions. Dogs are just simply great.

But, isn't it ironic, that often women call men "dogs"?... but my view? If I found a man with the qualities I listed in a dog, I think I'd be a very happy woman! I am in NO way being derogatory towards men.

So, you may say, well-- if you're a cat, and the guy is a dog... how does that work? Well, have you ever heard the phrase "Opposites Attract"??? =)


So there you have it! Interesting thoughts that came from a random conversation.

I love my life! =) And can't wait to have a dog of my own (like literally!)... and well, you know... eventually have that MAN, with those qualities! =)

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Are you stalking tonight?

Girls are incredible creatures. Very interesting, and very complicated. I can say this, because I am one. We have many talents. Each woman is unique. I love that about women. We're so intricate and fascinating. Now if only I could find a man who appreciates all the little things that make me, ME!

After recent conversations with a close girl friend, I laughed at how alike we can be in some respects. The biggest? Stalking. Ok.... so don't freak out. It's not a bad type of stalking-- promise.

So what do I mean by stalking? I mean... we get on Facebook, Myspace, etc. and well, we search for people (for most of us single ladies, it's usually men!)... look for information. Find out more about people. If we meet you and are intrigued by you, you can almost bet we'll try to find you. It's not to be creepy, honestly. It's simply because we're curious by nature. We want to know more about you. We want to see what you're really about, and with the wonderful creation of social networking, we can do these things. Maybe it's the idea that we can scope you out, learn a bit about you, to sort of figure out if you are compatible. Maybe it's because we're scared of falling for someone totally wrong for us, so if we get a little information, it's sort of a safety thing.

Stalking, well, is fun. It's not only men we stalk. We've been known to stalk other women. Why? Well, if it's someone we know the guy we like is interested in, we look at her to see what she has that we don't. To see what kind of girl he likes. To ask ourselves-- is she prettier than me? Yes, it's sad, I know. But it's what we do.

What causes us to stalk? Well, one thing-- boredom. It's summer, I'm sitting at home, and my mind starts to wander. Or perhaps I just see something questionable, and become intrigued, and I have to get to the bottom of it. It can be a picture, a comment, a status update. Whatever. It catches my attention, and I'm curious.

Like I said, women are complicated. We don't do this to be creepy (well, those of us who are sane).

For me, I am just overall a curious person. And well, I love learning about people. People intrigue me. I love how different people are. I just love it. Is that bad?

Well, maybe you think my stalking is creepy. Maybe you think I'm strange. But again, it's just one of those things that make me who I am. It's up to you-- love me or hate me... I am who I am, and I'm not changing for anyone!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Celebrity...

Today, two celebrities passed away-- Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. Personally, I wasn't a huge fan of either. Well, honestly, I've never been one to become obsessed with any celebrity. I don't really follow tabloids, I don't have any celebrities that I know all about. I guess I just have other interests. Being in radio, perhaps I should be more up-to-date on the celeb gossip. Oh well.

Despite not being a fan of either of these celebrities, the deaths did bring forth a lot of thoughts.

First of all... Life is SO short. You never know when you'll breathe your last. It's a scary thought-- yes; but we also shouldn't live in fear. We need to learn to appreciate each and every day we're given. I read an article the other day about how we're constantly looking forward to something, but when that thing finally happens, we're already on to looking forward to the next exciting thing. Why can't we just stop and enjoy the moment, and quit looking for the next quick fix? Why can't we love the moment we're in? Why can't we slow down and enjoy the ride? Life is so short, yet we're constantly wanting time to go faster. I'm guilty of this. With school-- I'm like, "I can't wait to be done and get on with my career". Instead, I should be taking in every little thing. College is such a great experience. I want to slow down, and enjoy it.

The second thing I thought about was just being a celebrity. How would I want to be remembered? I may not be an avid follower of celebrities, but I've always wondered what it would be like to actually be a celebrity.
If I were a celeb, I'd want to be different. I'd want to be a good role model. I'd want to be remembered for being a down-to-earth, good-hearted woman. I'd want to be remembered for giving to others, instead of taking for myself. I'd want to be remember for being married to ONE man, my sweetheart... for my whole life. I'd want to be someone that people admired for being different.

Ok, so I may never be a celebrity... but that doesn't mean I can't still strive to be the person I described above. But maybe that's the beauty of it. It's always the "good" ones who go unnoticed. And that's probably the way they prefer it. They don't want to be full of themselves. It's always about others.

So while the passing of these two is sad... there's a great deal we can learn from it.

What are you living for?

What will your legacy be?

What is most important to you?

Who's life have you impacted?

So many questions. So many great lessons.


Song of the day:

Celebrity, by NSYNC

If I wasn't a celebrity
Would you be so nice to me
If I didn't have cheese like every day
Would you still wanna be with me
If I couldn't buy you diamond rings
And all those other expensive things
Would you be so into me
If I wasn't a celebrity

Lately I've been doing a little thinkin' 'bout the things that satisfy you
It's making me wonder 'bout the things that you see in me
I hate the way you like to say your man's a celebrity
Baby what's the deal, I thought you wanted me for me

You gotta say what you mean
You gotta mean what you say
'Cause you keep pushin' me away
'Cause I ain't got no time to play, so I say

CHORUS-2x

celebrity, celebrity, celebrity, celebrity

I'm glad that you are having a good time livin' the life that I've laid out for me
Constantly splurgin', spending my money on everything you see
It would be diferent if you had something
Maybe like a J-O-B
You need to get your thing together, yeah

You gotta stop runnin' games, sayin'
It ain't about my fame
'Cause you know if things weren't this way
You'd be gone a long time ago, so I say

CHORUS-repeat

If you really loved me, you'd try and show me it ain't even about my name
But you try to use me, you lie to fool me
So it can never be the same
So now I'm leaving you behind
I've found somebody who can love me for me
And that's all I need, yeah

Celebrity, celebrity, celebrity, celebrity

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

A reason for everything... right?

So... it's late (or should I say early)... and I can't sleep. I'm placing the blame on the sweet tea I drank today, seeing as I have refrained for a few weeks now. So I'm going to say it's due to caffeine overload. Whatever.

So I did a really... ridiculous thing. I was lonely. I already couldn't sleep... And those two little books were staring me dead in the face. What books? Well, the journal I kept for Adam while he was in Spain, and the picture album I gave him. They've been laying in my bedroom floor for weeks, since he returned them. Every once in a while... I'd notice them, but shrug it off. His picture, in a frame, lays on the floor right beside those two books... I've tried to avoid it, honestly.

I sat down and started to read the journal. And I cried. And cried some more. I was in love then. I knew what I wanted-- or at least what I thought I wanted. I had a great guy. He adored me... and I tried to reciprocate. Those words I wrote, weren't lies. They never were. I meant what I said. Those two years I spent with him... were great. They have not vanished, they aren't a distant memory. Those two years are a huge part of who I am. Those two years have taught me a lot about myself, about life, and about love. I grew up a lot.

For those of you who know me, I had just gotten out of a crappy relationship right before Adam and I got together. I had told myself, "Never again". Then Adam came along... and changed my world. I fell in love. I was adored. I was cared for and protected like I never thought I deserved. That means the world to me.

Now am I sorry that our relationship ended? That's tough to answer. I didn't want to hurt him--ever. It is hard because I hate that I couldn't give him what he gave me. I tried to make the whole thing right. I battled with it for a while... and just couldn't make it right. No matter how much I tried, it just wasn't right. I couldn't change what my heart decided.

I needed this. I know that. And although there are days when I feel lonely and long to be loved... I realize that this is what I need right now. I'm young. I have a lot going on. I still am not even sure who I am.

One thing I do miss? His friendship. He was one of my very best friends. But I know that he probably hates me... and that's ok. Somedays I hate myself too.

I'm making it. I am strong. I have a lot left to accomplish in my life. And nothing beats the power of a positive attitude. And... when worse comes to worse-- I'll fight, like a girl!


Fight Like A Girl
Written By: Kristy Osmunson, Bob Regan, Kelley Shepard

Little girl alone on the playground
Tired of gettin' teased and gettin' pushed around
Wishin' she was invisible
To them

She ran home cryin'
"Why do they hate me?"
And Mama wiped the tears and said
"Baby, you're brave and you're beautiful.
So, hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

At 31 she was wheelin' and dealin'
Kept on hittin' that same glass ceilin'
She was never gonna one of the boys, no
She coulda gave up on her ambition
And spent the rest of her life just wishin'
Instead she listened to her mama's voice sayin'

"Hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

Oh, with style and grace
Kick ass and take names

Ten years of climbin' that ladder
Oh, but money and power don't matter
When the doctor said "the cancer spread"
She holds on tight to her husband and babies
And says "this is just another test God gave me.
And I know just how to handle this"

I'll hold my head high
I'll never let this define
The light in my eyes
Love myself, give it Hell
I'll take on this world
If I stand and be strong
No, I'll never give up
I will conquer with love
And I'll fight
Like a girl

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Friday, June 19, 2009

Traffic, Life, Dating

So these three things may be very random... but it's been jumbled in my head ALL day. Some of it's ranting, other parts, well, are happy.

Traffic

I absolutely HATE traffic. It stresses me out SO bad! Today, like an idiot, I didn’t leave work until about 4… and well, you guessed—I hit some major traffic on my 70 mile drive home. I think the major thing is I hate being alone in my car for too long alone, and I just want to get where I’m going. People in traffic annoy me. People don’t know how to use signals, they are rude… inconsiderate. Admit it, we’re all selfish in traffic. I even caught myself not letting someone over, just because I wanted to get where I was headed (plus, someone earlier didn’t let me over, so it was kind of retaliation). In traffic, I absolutely must have good music or someone to talk to on the phone… and thankfully, I had both today! =) It definitely wasn’t as bad at Thanksgiving break my freshman year… a 2 hour drive lasted at least 4 hours… UGH!


Life

I love my life: honestly. Don’t get me wrong. I have my bad days, just like any other human being, but it’s all about how you react to it. I have my lonely times, but I can’t let it get me down. It takes effort. I have to try to keep myself busy most days. But life is great. I have some really great friends, like my guy friends who listen to my complaints about dating, and give me the male perspective! I have discovered new interests, and new things to love. And I have laughed oh so hard about—well, everything. I have learned to make the best out of every situation. Laugh is funny… it’s tough, but it’s entertaining.

I have some of the BEST people in my life that I wouldn’t want to go anywhere. Those people know who they are. They are there to encourage me, love me, make me laugh, be a shoulder to cry on, whatever I need. I am SO thankful. That’s especially what I need to help me through the ups and downs of single life.


Dating

So this single thing is a whole new world for me. At this point, I’m honestly NOT looking for something “serious”, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to date. One problem—technology has given guys an easy way out. Text messaging and social networks are the devil when it comes to “talking”/”dating”… whatever. Is it too much for me to ask you to CALL me every once in a while, especially if you want to ask me out?! Also… what ever happened to a REAL date? I have guys that are like—wanna come over and watch a movie? Don’t get me wrong, that’s fine… But is it too much to ask to be treated like a lady every once in a while? I feel like the whole going to watch a movie at his house is more “casual” and good after you’ve gotten to know each other better. I’m not asking for anything super fancy either… Just be creative… it could be FUN!

Don’t get me wrong, I am in NO way trying to hate on the male species. I mean, you have to love them. I just want someone who is interested in ME, who enjoys my company… It’s not just about looks. Sure, I’ll admit, we all have our shallow moments, but it’s about so much more. I just want to spend time with someone who gets me. Someone who wants to get to know me. Someone I can laugh with, be silly with… just talk about whatever. I just want to date.

But honestly—I have gotten to the point where I would rather a guy say either I like you, or I don’t like you. Honestly. I’d rather you be honest and upfront than worrying about hurting my feelings if you don’t like me. It’s better for both of us if we know each other’s intentions straight up. Just tell me, I’m an adult, I can handle it. I can just say: He’s Just Not That Into Me; and then we can both go on our way to find what’s best for each of us! Easy enough right?


SONG OF THE DAY: (warning: this is meant for humor... not to be taken too seriously. I don't hate men... PROMISE!)

Men Don't Change by Amy Dalley

He was a bad boy

and I was a good girl
He needed me to smooth out the edges
Well he'd get his drink on and flirt with the ladies
And after two years of his crap I quit beggin'
I'm a magnet for the fixer upper man
If I know it's fire do I let it burn my hand?

*Chorus*

Cupid works for the devil be suspicious if he cries
Sexy shoes look good, yeah but it ain't always right
Chocolate is a band-aid no matter what they say
Shoes don't stretch, and men don't change

My friend Lisa, she loves a liar
She found out about his other girlfriends
He makes excuses, so she forgives him
And she swears she's gonna leave if he screws up again
But he's good lookin' that's why she don't see
He's got her exactly where he wants her to be

Monday, June 15, 2009

Today's Song is...

So after much thought and a few good conversations... I decided my song of the day was: I Don't Need A Man by Pussycat Dolls.

"I don't need a ring around my finger, to make me feel complete."
"The more you try, the less I buy and I don't have to think it through, You'll know if I'm into you."
"So if you wanna be with me it ain't at all about the bling you're bringin', I want a love that's for real, And without that - no deal, And baby I don't need a hand if it only wants to grab one thing."

I'm ok being me, the single me.

If it's meant to be, one day I'll find that love... but I don't HAVE to have a man to make me happy.


Now I just need to keep myself busy, to keep my mind off men! Haha.

And I definitely need a JOB. I'm broke, and I absolutely HATE depending on my parents. I'm too independent for that. So if anyone knows of any job openings... let me know!