Win or Lose?

Some days you can't win for losing.

Things are going good, and then out of no where, something slaps you in the face.

My thoughts? You pick and choose your battles. Some things just aren't worth the fight.

I've made the decisions I made... and I did so for MYSELF. I'm at a selfish stage in my life. I have finally started taking control, and not in it just to please everyone else. That's a miserable life.

I've been there, and done that. I've smiled and pretended it's all ok... just so EVERYONE else was happy.

I'm tired of being attacked. I'm tired of having to explain myself.

I don't need to be drug down anymore.

I'm me, I'm just who I am. You can't change me. If you don't like that-- I'm not going to apologize, because I won't apologize for the way God made me.

Yes, I have made mistakes. Yes, I've done stupid things and said things I shouldn't have. I'm human-- I make mistakes. But realize that everything I do that doesn't make YOU happy, isn't necessarily a mistake. It isn't necessarily to make you mad. It's because I am living MY life. I'm doing what I need to do. Take it or leave it.

I'm annoyed. I'm frustrated. I'm trying to get my life on track, and it seems like there are things and people trying to hold me back. But it won't. I'm determined.

Ready, Set... Jump

Risks...

It's a scary thing: taking risks. You don't know what the end result will be. And as humans, we're a bit selfish and have to look out for number one.

What are we so afraid of?

Failure?
Unhappiness?
Insecurity?
The unknown?

What if something REALLY great happened instead? You'll never know if you don't take a risk.

I've had a lot of time to think about life and love. And I'm honestly tired of settling for security... for what I know. I want to take a few risks and live my life to the fullest.

I would rather be able to sit back at the end of the day and say... I gave it everything I had.

If it turns out badly-- while at the time it may seem terrible, in the end, it will only make me a stronger person.

But what if it turns out wonderful? I would never know if I didn't take that risk.

I'm tired of holding on to things of the past. There were things in my past that I have held on to, but I've realized how unhealthy it is for me. Instead of embracing the great future I have ahead of me... I've been dwelling in the past. In all the let downs, whether it was other people or myself. I've been hurt. And while I have been sitting around, letting it drag me down-- I won't do it anymore.

Yes, I have been hurt... pretty deeply. Part of it is because I have a big heart. Part of it was my ignorance. But most importantly-- it's because those things weren't meant to be. Those things weren't good for me. It wasn't my happy ending.

I've always had a fairy tale idea for my life. Most people think I'm naive... but in all honesty, I know life isn't about having everything and it being perfect. Have you ever watched or read a fairy tale? Did everything just fall together for their happily ever after? No. Every fairy tale has hard times... but in the end, it makes everything worthwhile.

So... I'm letting go. I'm forgiving and forgetting the things that have hurt me in the past. I'm going to start embracing the here and now.

I'm jumping in. Head first.

I'm scared. This is something completely new to me.

But I don't want to live my life with regrets. I want to live life fully, and at the end be able to say I enjoyed the heck out of life.

Let's take a risk. Let's make some memories. Let's test our strength. Let's live life to the fullest.

Live life.
Love a lot...
Laugh MORE!
Give your heart.
Stop holding back.
Live in the moment... quit dwelling in the past; quit hoping for better in the future.